Saturday, May 02, 2009

The day I felt THE responsibility.......


Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

Firstly, forgive me for being away for a while. I just needed some time off to do some serious thinking about the life we live in.

Alhamdulillah my life's been great so far. Marriage and pregnancy have definitely brought the best in me. I never took life so seriously but I guess it's also because I've "aged" and become somewhat wiser. hehehe

So, lets begin with the pregnancy update. I have less than 2 months to go, Insha'Allah 6-7 weeks to go. Truth be told, I'm not fully prepared to bring my li'l one into this world. I know almost all mothers would like to have a baby girl for their first child. Unlike me, I would rather have a boy for so many reasons. One important one is because I think it's easier to bring up a son than a daughter. At least that's what I'd like to think. However, having said that, I'm definitely thankful to Allah for giving me the chance to have a child. Alhamdulillah. I always say that I'm not ready to have a baby girl, but if for any reason I were to give birth to a baby girl, I would say that Allah knows best and he would know when I'm ready or not. So really, I'm not too bothered of the baby's sex. For as long as baby is healthy, Insha'Allah I'll be ready for him/her but for now, I'm still not prepared. Having said that, I guess I won't be ready even until he/she's a teenager and beyond!

Anyway, I've been getting a lot of videos from friends on my Facebook list regarding Dajjal and End of the world. Every time I watch these videos it bring tears to my eyes. I wonder if I can bring up my child to be a good Muslim/Muslimah? Everyday, I try my very best to grasp as much information as I can on how to bring up my child to become a good, in fact, great Muslim Insha'Allah. I hope I will be able to teach him/her more about the after life while I'm still alive, Insha'Allah. It scares me A LOT knowing that the signs are there and yet we as a Muslim can't even see it. How about in years or even days to come when the Dajjal appears, are we ready for it? We are so oblivious with the world we're living in now and would it be too late to actually turn back time?? Would we be able to know that we're on the right path, which is Islam? I'm scared! I pray everyday that I will be there throughout my child(ren)'s journey in this world. I want to personally bring them up to become good muslimin/muslimah. I've been watching Youtube clips about the signs of Dajjal or even about the Christians. I hunger for new knowledge everyday. Alhamdulillah Hubby's been the one "feeding" me with all these stories or videos. Masha'Allah he's definitely a different person than he was before we got married and that's definitely in a great way, Alhamdulillah.We've been reading Surah Luqman ever since I got pregnant (slightly a few months throughout the pregancy) until now. Alhamdulillah Hubby's memorised the whole Surah and make an attempt to read it everytime we Solat Maghrib/Isya' together. Everyday we try to become a better Muslim and Insha'Allah all we can do is to pray to Allah S.W.T so he shows us the right path when the day comes. Amin. Insha'Allah.

I know those of you who are reading this entry are mostly parents. How do you all teach your children that Islam is indeed the right religion? My parents have been great! They've got loadsssssss of books on Islam. Normally it's my Mom reading and telling me what she's learnt/read. So I'd normally listen and learn from her. Truthfully, I hate reading! I'd rather watch videos than reading. Hubby on the other hand don't mind reading. So nowadays, he's the one reading and telling me about the story he's read. Which has worked brilliantly for us But when the baby comes, as a Mother I think I ought to teach him/her about Islam. Hopefully Insha'Allah I will start reading and telling baby the stories as how Mommy did to us. Insha'Allah.

I think I better log off now. It's 12:30a.m and my back hurts so much! hehehe Insha'Allah, I will return when I have something beneficial to talk about.


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